

My Furry Assistant went along for the trip.. curling up in my lap while I worked, snapping at a bug here or there like a little fly trap..
Creativity involves breaking out of established patterns
in order to look at things in a different way. -- Edward de Bono
This flower has been sitting to the side of the easel.. feeling extremely unfinished.. I had no idea where to go with it.. and it sure wasn't telling me where to go either.
So this past weekend I put it back on the easel.. and just went to 'paint pushin'..
I did have an attachment to the flower - so I was uneasy about possibly destroying how far I had gotten.. but then.. How was I to know if it couldn't get Better, if I didn't try?
So after many layers, and a rather big mess... I had something I am feeling MUCH better about now..
A little 'paint pushin' can go a long way..
Life got in the way and Tuesday rolls around and I end up at the hardware store.. I had made plans to really commit myself to having a space to GET BIG!
We got some supplies - 1x2's and tempered hardboard.. and guess what it turned into..
A Gigantic "easel" - A whopping 6.5 Feet by 4 Feet.
That green square in the middle? That is a 8.5x11 Inch piece of paper. Yea.. it is BIG!
So thank you to my wonderful other half for making my BIG workarea!
Now onto the assignments..
I looked over the videos again before starting to work Wednesday night.
Tape up my paper..
and BOOM....
...Oh.. My... Gracious... big.. White.. BLANKNESS... I procrastinate another half hour before I manage to make myself stand infront of it.. brush in hand.. pallete of colors in the other..
And I make a mark... oooo.. ok... I can do this... I keep going.. Ugh. what a waste of paint.. NOOOO.. Go away you Mind Monster!!.. More color... More scribble...
At the beginning of each painting I feel myself not liking where it is going... but I don't stop.. I keep going...
So I kept on until I was satisfied with what I saw.. It was rather liberating to just scribble wildly.. paint dripping, sliding down the paper.. I didn't let those muddy colors stop me when they showed up either.. I felt resistance at first.. but the more I kept working, moving color, adding color.. the more natural it started to feel..
Here - I chose a shape I don't tend to work with much.. the diamond.. No matter what I did to this thing.. nothing looked right.. at moments.. it would.. then I would look at it again and it would remind me of something you would see in a 16 year old's bedroom.. it reminded me of jeans for some reason.. This thing was dead silent.. I think it got mad at me.. I want to explore this one again most certainly.. and I think I know where it went wrong.. the diamond.
Upon showing this piece to my other half.. his first comment was.. "why a diamond? You KNOW you are all about circles!!" UGH! He was right!! What was I thinking? WHY did I fight my feeling and choose a shape I didn't feel passionate about?? I LOVE circles.. they show up in every other thing I make practically.. just look at my WreckThisJournal.. They were Every Where!
The good news? Once I get past the first baby step of the Big fear.. I'm good.. then it is just hushing Mind Monster.. That thing has been active for too long, so I think it will just take more effort to hush it...
I'm so glad everyone has had such fun this week.. and made such progress.. I'll catch you!
Let's get better.. Get Bolder.. get BIGGER!